Tuesday, March 26, 2019

Stage of crisis

I am starting to feel like I am in the stage where people experience mid life crisis. The thing is..I am only at my late 20s. Sometimes when I sat down for hours having deep thoughts on my life goal and realize alot of it required huge amount of cash!

I always believe people in different stages experience a programmed-life-crisis.
Recalling back to when I was age 17 and preparing for college entry. I wasn't sure what type of course to select. Ranging from business, science, communication to engineering. It scared the hell out of me for what I study direct refers to my career path. 

Zoom..4 to 5 years of sweet college honey moon ended. And another crisis hits you hard in the head.
Thinking how am I suppose to apply what my education to work field.
Because of choosing companies, applying for a job, and seeking for a suitable position and hoping for a decent entry salary scheme will somehow turn you to a lunatic.

the scary part is.. when you realized after college days and been working for 3-4years.. the college fancy degree feels like a certificate for job application..
I found out this society fact when decided to change my job from a salesman to another profession. Employer often asked "what have you done in your previous company" or "any achievement?"
It made me felt like courses and subject like communication studies are just an entry level education. 
It doesn't add value to your skills. Maybe exceptional with a little surface of presentation skills.

Crisis drove me to an introvert. I began to talk lesser. Avoid social activities.
Explaining how your career to your friends grew tired overtime.
Sometimes I refer to successful people who doesn't have formal education and wonder how they hell they even make it?
And I know successfulness comes from optimism. How you think.
How you live through the day. Do you see it as dull or do you see it happening everyday. How to cheer yourself when times are bad. How to get up and walk again when you fall unexpectedly.
To maintain high amount of optimism and positive energy are the hardest thing to learn.
Schools, college and education don't teach you how to behave such way. 

I was at my lowest, to the ground. But look at the others.. people like Jack Ma, he came from nothing..
People like Arnold, a ran away.. people like sylvester stallon who was so poor that he needed to do porn and sell his dog for survival.. they made it..
They have a pair of working hands just like me.. 
I am always questioning my capability..what made them different? Physically, none.
I am younger, stronger, better memory.

But mentally...
Big difference..